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Taken on 18th April, at Philip’s grand parent’s house, Taken by Philip’s ‘little mother’ (jak-eun-um-ma) Tila. Thanks for the wonderful picture, Tila!

I wanted to write something today, because of what I experienced today, what I felt, what I thought about, and what I concluded finally. But just now, I felt that I don’t have time. It is 10 o’clock already. I have to sleep. I have to do my swedish course homework before I sleep too. I had little clothes that I have to wash before I begin my swedish course homework……..

So I miss this opportunity to share what I feel, I think…to my friends and family who may read this later.

Honestly, shortly, I feel fear, worry and find comfort somewhere throughout my life. I feel fear for the future, for the uncertainty. Wouldn’t it be so, especially when you live in foreign country where you don’t know how you think and behave might not be accepted as normal….?

But I find comfort… now from my husband, previously from my mother. (Honestly, I didn’t really find comfort in God, once when I had really difficult time around ten years ago, yes. But not now…) Would it be that I would be fearless if I be closer to God? Unfortunately, I think the to-be-close-to-God-retual claims too much time for the modern life.

Well, what I wanted to say was not really about God. It was about you– you who may read this right now.

I am sorry that I couldn’t show what I feel, what I think, how I live so well (in other words, sorry for the bad, lazy update for my blog). I just want to say that I think of you, all you come here and maybe just read, or some who even leave some very nice messages.

I care for you, and think about you. It may sound like very bad excuse but I couldn’t find any other excuse than that I don’t have enough time to show that …it is like that.

Maybe later, someday when my fear is much less and some vacation time came, then I will write more.

Thanks for coming here, and I love you, my friends and my family!